a season of stillness, a year of hushed and humbled splendor

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Image: The Salt Lake Temple in all of its hushed and humbled splendor


One of the gifts of pregnancy is forced resignation. It requires a stepping down, a letting go, and a spilling out. My body is wholly intent on creating this little human and entirely uninterested in whatever other visions I may have had for myself. From what I hear, this act of surrender is the prelude to parenthood.


During this growing season, I have no choice but to lay dormant while my body engages in her divine errand. I am compelled to tether my pace and succumb to the slow passing of time. My energy wanes, and so I rest.


My physical body is not the only part of me that has ebbed. When it came time to create new year’s resolutions, I drew a blank. I had no lists of books to read or miles to run or meals to cook. No zealous spreadsheets with goals divided into categories and subcategories as I have in the past (not sure I should have admitted that). I decided that what I really wanted for 2014 was to just be present. It seemed obvious in that moment of year-end reflection that life, in her inevitable way, would refine me. I didn’t need spreadsheets and lists and goals to be exfoliated; I would evolve through the simple act of being.


I sat with a friend the other night and told her how delicious it feels to lack aspiration. I surprised myself. It almost seems blasphemous to admit that aloud, but it’s true. This is not my season of striving, it is my season of stillness. I love the way it feels so much that it bears repeating:


It is so fantastically freeing to bury the anvil of ambition for a time and just float quietly through life’s muted and mundane moments.


So here’s to you, 2014. I look forward to your year of hushed and humbled splendor.

7 Responses to “a season of stillness, a year of hushed and humbled splendor”

  1. Jenn says:

    I love every single word of this, as I always do with your beautiful writing. So poignant and true.

  2. Di says:

    You had sub-categories?! :-)

  3. Krisanne says:

    Di-Ah! I knew I shouldn’t have admitted that! ;)

  4. Lumina says:

    What gifts you are enjoying! Stillness and presence.

    * Halelujah * <3

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